رمان دو موتور سوار قسمت 7

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ﺑﯽ ﺣﺮﻑ ﻣﻮﺑﺎﯾﻞ ﺭﺍ ﮔﺮﻓﺖ ﻭ ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻝ ﺑﺎﺯﯼ ﺷﺪ.
ﻣﯽ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ ﺑﺎﺯ ﻫﻢ ﺣﺮﻑ ﺑﺰﻧﺪ...ﺷﺎﯾﺪ ﻣﺴﺨﺮﻩ ﺍﻡ ﻫﻢ ﺑﮑﻨﺪ ﺍﻣﺎ ﺍﻭ ﭼﯿﺰﯼ ﻧﮕﻔﺖ.
ﺁﻫﯽ ﮐﺸﯿﺪﻡ ﻭ ﺑﻪ ﺳﻤﺖ ﻣﻮﺗﻮﺭﻡ ﺭﻓﺘﻢ.
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ﮐﻨﺎﺭ ﻗﺒﺮ ﻧﺸﺴﺘﻢ ﻭ ﻧﮕﺎﻫﺶ ﮐﺮﺩﻡ.
"ﺍﻓﺴﺎﻧﻪ ﺳﺮﻭﺭﯼ
ﺗﻮﻟﺪ 1345/7/9 
ﻭﻓﺎﺕ 1378/8/3"
ﻗﻤﻘﻤﻪ ﯼ ﺁﺑﯽ ﺭﺍ ﮐﻪ ﺑﺎ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺁﻭﺭﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ ﺑﺮﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﻭ ﻗﺒﺮﺵ ﺭﺍ ﺷﺴﺘﻢ.
ﺁﻥ ﻗﺪﺭ ﮔﺮﯾﻪ ﮐﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ ﮐﻪ ﺩﯾﮕﺮ ﺍﺷﮑﻢ ﺩﺭ ﻧﻤﯽ ﺁﻣﺪ.ﺳﺮﻡ ﺩﺭﺩ ﻣﯽ ﮐﺮﺩ ﻭ ﭼﺸﻤﺎﻧﻢ ﭘﻒ ﮐﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻧﺪ.
ﺯﯾﺮ ﻟﺐ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ:
- ﻣﺎﻣﺎﻥ؟ﺩﯾﺸﺐ ﺧﻮﺍﺑﺘﻮ ﺩﯾﺪﻡ...ﻭﻟﯽ ﺗﻮ ﻧﺒﻮﺩﯼ...ﺷﺎﯾﺪﻡ ﺗﻮ ﺑﻮﺩﯼ...ﻭﻗﺖ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﯽ ﻣﯽ ﻣﺮﺩﯼ ﺻﻮﺭﺗﺖ ﭘﺮ ﺧﻮﻥ ﺑﻮﺩ؟...ﺧﯿﻠﯽ ﺗﺮﺳﯿﺪﻡ...ﻣﯽ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺘﯽ ﻣﻨﻮ ﺍﺯ ﻃﺒﻘﻪ ﯼ ﺑﺎﻻ‌ ﭘﺮﺕ ﮐﻨﯽ ﭘﺎﯾﯿﻦ...ﺑﺒﯿﻨﻢ،ﺍﻭﻥ ﺟﺎ ﺟﺎﺕ ﺧﻮﺑﻪ؟ﺭﺍﺣﺘﯽ؟ﺩﻟﺖ ﻭﺍﺳﻢ ﺗﻨﮓ ﻧﺸﺪﻩ؟
ﺑﺎ ﺩﺳﺘﺎﻧﻢ ﭼﺸﻢ ﻫﺎﯾﻢ ﺭﺍ ﻓﺸﺎﺭ ﺩﺍﺩﻡ.ﺑﺎ ﻟﺤﻦ ﺧﺴﺘﻪ ﺍﯼ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ:
- ﻣﻨﻢ ﺩﻟﻢ ﺑﺮﺍﺕ ﺗﻨﮓ ﺷﺪﻩ...ﻣﯽ ﺩﻭﻧﯽ...ﺧﯿﻠﯽ ﺗﻨﻬﺎﻡ...ﺁﺑﺘﯿﻦ ﺍﺻﻼ‌ ﺑﻬﻢ ﺗﻮﺟﻬﯽ ﻧﺪﺍﺭﻩ...ﺑﻬﻢ ﻣﯿﮕﻪ ﻧﯽ ﻧﯽ ...ﭼﻨﺪ ﻣﺎﻫﻪ ﮐﻪ ﺗﻮ ﺧﻮﺩﺷﻪ ﻭ ﮐﻼ‌ﻓﻪ ﺍﺱ ﺍﻣﺎ ﻧﻤﯿﮕﻪ ﭼﺮﺍ...ﭼﻘﺪﺭ ﻭﻗﺘﯽ ﺑﻮﺩﯼ ﻫﻤﻪ ﭼﯽ ﺧﻮﺏ ﺑﻮﺩ...ﻧﻤﯿﺸﻪ ﺑﯿﺎﻡ ﭘﯿﺸﺖ؟ﻣﯿﺨﻮﺍﻡ ﺑﻐﻠﻢ ﮐﻨﯽ...ﻣﯿﺪﻭﻧﯽ ﭼﻨﺪ ﻭﻗﺘﻪ ﮐﻪ ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﮐﺴﯽ ﮐﻪ ﺑﻐﻠﻢ ﮐﺮﺩﻩ ﮐﻮﭼﻮﻝ ﺑﻮﺩﻩ؟...ﺻﺪﺍﻣﻮ ﻣﯽ ﺷﻨﻮﯼ؟ﻧﻤﯿﺨﻮﺍﯼ ﺟﻮﺍﺏ ﺑﺪﯼ؟
ﮔﻮﺷﻢ ﺭﺍ ﺑﻪ ﻗﺒﺮ ﭼﺴﺒﺎﻧﺪﻡ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ:
- ﺍﻭﻧﺠﺎ ﺑﺮﺍﯼ ﻣﻨﻢ ﺟﺎ ﻫﺴﺖ؟...ﺍﯾﻦ ﺭﻭﺯﺍ ﺣﺲ ﻣﯽ ﮐﻨﻢ ﻣﺜﻞ ﻣﺮﺩﻩ ﻫﺎ ﺷﺪﻡ...ﺷﺎﯾﺪ ﺑﻬﺘﺮﻩ ﺑﯿﺎﻡ ﭘﯿﺸﺖ...ﻫﻨﻮﺯﻡ ﺑﻐﻠﺖ ﮔﺮﻡ ﻭ ﻧﺮﻣﻪ؟...ﻣﺎﻣﺎﻥ؟ﻧﻤﯽ ﺧﻮﺍﯼ ﺩﺭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﯼ ﺍﻭﻥ ﻣﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﺮﺍﺕ ﺑﮕﻢ؟...ﻧﻪ...ﻣﻄﻤﺌﻨﻢ ﻧﻤﯽ ﺧﻮﺍﯼ...ﺩﺭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﯼ ﺍﻭﻥ ﺯﻥ ﭼﯽ؟...ﺟﺎﺗﻮ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻪ...ﯾﻌﻨﯽ ﺟﺎﯾﯽ ﺭﻭ ﮐﻪ ﻣﺎﻝ ﺗﻮ ﺑﻮﺩﻩ ﺍﻣﺎ ﻫﯿﭻ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻧﺪﺍﺷﺘﯿﻮ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻪ...ﻧﺎﺭﺍﺣﺘﯽ؟...ﻏﺼﻪ ﻧﺨﻮﺭ...ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﻫﺴﺘﻢ...ﻧﻤﯿﺬﺍﺭﻡ ﺁﺏ ﺗﻮ ﺩﻟﺖ ﺗﮑﻮﻥ ﺑﺨﻮﺭﻩ...ﺣﺎﻻ‌ ﺑﺨﻨﺪ ﺑﺒﯿﻨﻢ...
Stay low
Soft, dark, and dreamless
Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness
I hate me for breathing without you
I don't want to feel anymore for you

Grieving for you
I'm not grieving for you
Nothing real love can't undo
And though I may have lost my way
All paths lead straight to you

I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you

Halo
Blinding wall between us
Melt away and leave us alone again
Humming, haunted somewhere out there
I believe our love can see us through in death

I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There's room inside for two
And I'm not grieving for you
I'm coming for you

You're not alone
No matter what they told you, you're not alone
I'll be right beside you forevermore

I long to be like you, sis
Lie cold in the ground like you did
There's room inside for two
And I'm not grieving for you
And as we lay in silent bliss
I know you remember me

I long to be like you
Lie cold in the ground like you
There's room inside for two
And I'm not grieving for you
I'm coming for you
like you" - Evanescence "
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